♥` Elyse

clear

2009-12-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

i had see through all this.
throughout this years

some people just find you.
whenever they NEED you.

did they really care
if you need them?

a BIG NO NO.

who is a real friend?
though my eyes are small.
but i can SEE it.

freaking

2009-12-04T23:54:00.001+08:00

you had successfully spoil my goody goody mood again

yet. you blamed everything on me.

am i really you daughter?

or just a freaking baby you took back from some rubbish bin.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND.

2009-11-19T22:34:00.001+08:00

i should commit suicide now.

f off

2009-11-10T21:16:00.002+08:00

i hate you

what i do aso wrong wan ma.
screw up spm lar.
super stress d still mau kacau kacau, scold scold scold there
not talking with you aso mau interrupt there
do mai those sohai ugly face
good in acting ma
act bao you lar
go be actress lar
and YOU
brainless shit
sayang her lar.
scold me lar
even not my fault aso scold
SOHAI.

even i archieve anything aso can't better than her want ma.
i sleep at longkang aso better.

;)

2009-11-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

prom dress

2009-11-08T16:45:00.002+08:00

as i said.
de dress above is my "backup" for prom dress..

and finally.
i found one that i kinda like =)
hahhaah

i definitely going to wear this le.
so please.
pray hard that no one gonna wear the same dress as mine
;)

tomorrow is the day

2009-11-03T21:21:00.002+08:00

graduate day is tomolo...
=( =( =( =( =( =( =( =(

there's too much too say
too little time to tell.

=(

dress

2009-10-24T23:51:00.001+08:00

OH MY GODDDDDD
i haven buy dress for prom lar....
=x
hopefully i can get sth nice
if really cant..
i think i will wear de "cacat white dress" as backup le..

*ahem. i noe spm coming
SHHH.

childhood =D

2009-10-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

went to "suria spice" to makan supper.
then ar.. mum suddenly mention bout "our cartoon"

hahaha. damn kawaii right? =D
she said she convince me to sleep alone by pasting a sailormoon poster in my room
AHAHAHAHA. then she sendiri laugh there
oh! she even bought sailormoon sleepwear for me.
*wink

then she talked about my bro.
she used to feed him when the show is on.
she said my bro's mouth will like this =O
easier to feed wor.
hahahahaha.

omg. i damn miss my childhood la.
made me felt that i was so CUTE =D
now de cartoon so weird d.
tak bagus to see le.

la la la~

god damn stress

2009-10-23T16:13:00.000+08:00

seriously.
i never have this kind of feelings b4

stress till no mood to do anything
can't study
can't sleep well.

how to release stress?
and make myself study like normal?

=(

i need superman to save me...

spm

2009-10-12T22:35:00.002+08:00

does anyone have the spm schedule?

i need motivation to study.....

strange

2009-10-09T23:33:00.003+08:00

i have a stupid feeling.

as if i might be losing u soon.

insecure.

whats wrong with me. or us?

i wish all this all just a nightmare

just like the one i had before.

no one understand

2009-10-04T19:18:00.002+08:00

how many times do i need to suffer things like that anymore?

my heart ain't strong.
and what you said are really too over.
i just have so much conflicts with you.
so now who's the one who having problems now?
what i did what i said
are all wrong
nothing's right.

i hate the way you criticize me.
from my outlook to my personality.
WHAT YOU LIKE ON ME?
i wonder.
im nothing good for you. isn't it?
and
am i your daughter or not?

don't ever judge me just like that
or else i will hate you.
you don't freaking understand everything
not even my feelings.

i just want to run out of the house.

lazy

2009-09-25T12:07:00.002+08:00

sudah long long time tak update blog.
@.@
so many dust d huh?

went grandma house from fri to mon
i didn't have much "ladies' talk" with cousins this times
cause i was busy playing some childish games.
*ahem
maybe maybe next time?
next month going there sumore

and we had bbq on sunday night!
hahahaha.
i still prefer new year eve that bbq.
more fun.
food more nice to eat.. =D

planned to go hot spring on monday
but weather uber hot.
so we didn't go
small kids went
and came back with super tanned skin
like indian
thank god i didn't go
you don't know how much i become fairer =D

tue.
went kepong to find uncle.
cause i left the wireless router there
the night before.
even argue with family cause of that
-.- stupid
then.. went ss2 to find mum's kawan
po pek po pek there
then ioi mall to check dad's new phone
@.@
BUT BUT BUT
i bought a new shade from morgan =D
muahahaha
daddy paid for it
he asked me to return him the money
but till now i still haven

thu. which is yest
i went sp with crys
hahahaha.
movie with bf. =)
"accident" not so nice to watch..
*aahem =x

then... i BOUGHT the heels
like finally =)

lol.
its a terrible post.
just ignore

but crystal asked me to update
so i updated =)

la la la~

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BLOG ANYMORE

8 sep

2009-09-13T11:46:00.003+08:00

know what?
i had a awesome birthday this year!!!
=D =D =D =D =D

special thanks to
HOH SHENG YING
TEH WEN XING
LEE YEE MIN
CRYSTAL CHEN
MY PARENTS
AND
MY BF =)

for brighten up my birthday =)

and also not to forget
whoever that wished me
*im abit to lazy list out* =p
and and and
QM.. =)
i love the albums a lot. =)

thanks wei mien for buying me the cake
heard that macam got some incident happen.
hahaha. =p
and thanks hweeling for cheering me up the dayss before =)

the most unexpected things is...
MY MUM BOUGHT ME A BIRTHDAY CAKE.
o.O o.O o.O
it had been few years since family buy me a birthday cake.
la la la~
i still remember the dayss before we didn't even talk with each other
and so.
everything's fine =)

and and and

i LOVE all of the PRESENTSSSSS
*wink

im officially 17 years old =)

ana and and

there's still 7 days of trial.
@@

good luck yea
everyone =)

pictures? later i will edit this post =p

exam

2009-09-07T23:25:00.001+08:00

oh ya. bro having upsr tomolo.
so.. all the best to him lar.
hopefully he will get good results
then he will get his dream phone as rewards.

our family's rules =.-

trial starts tomolo.
i did study. a bit.
ashame with myself.

but don't ever gimme pressure.

GOOD LUCK YO~

bday

2009-09-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

less than an hour then it will be my day le.
la la la~

i just hope to have a happy day.
since i was so upset this 2 days.
and i shouldn't cry anymore
eyes damn pain =x
oh o oh o.

and dad gave me 250 buckz as my "present"
its very awkward
cause before that we kind of argued
he said im the one who didn't say what i want
i did said. but they d decided everything
should i talk anymore?

okay okay
shh. =x

a simple wishes.
that will never come true? =\

oh ya.
snoopie bit my new pair of slippers *urgh

abandoned

2009-09-06T23:18:00.003+08:00

my eyes are swollen.
smile doesn't exist on my face since morning.

they. ruined. my. bday. mood. once again.
ha. this is not the first time.
why am i still so upset?

they gave me hopes
and not long after that
they break the little bubbles.
do they ever think of my feelings?
don't they know its very hurt?

you decided everything.
you rejected everything.
and you said this is the celebration for me?
or this is the celebration for sis or bro?
nothing goes right today.
1st mum shouted at me.
for expecting anything
then waited there for freaking long
just to wait sis finish the sand art
and you said "you all" were going to eat pizza hut
SO WHY ASK FOR MY OPINIONS
SINCE ITS TOO STUPID TO LISTEN?

you asked me what i want.
and i answered
yet you said all those thing to disapprove my wishes
WHY STILL ASK?

you're just making it worse
when you said "we" are going to celebrate my bday
and everything goes wrong

no cake.
no presents.
no wishes.
as it always been.

why should i expect this year will be any difference?

ITS SEPTEMBER!

2009-09-05T13:09:00.005+08:00

i used to love september a lot..
but this year not that much anymore..
=x

stupid trial starts on my bday!
ohhhh....
i don't think i study enough for trial
and and and
how will my bday going to be?
i don't dare to expect much =\

i realize i don't know how to blog anymore
=(

i hope this will be a wonderful month.

3rd month

2009-08-28T18:23:00.003+08:00

it's 8 days late.
=p

isn't it looks like hamster more than bear?

iloveyou =)

childish?

2009-08-25T12:17:00.003+08:00

i don't want to hate you..

embarrassing

2009-08-24T00:51:00.003+08:00

went chor han's house just now..
was wondering is it a right decision?
not that her party was bad
its actually quite okay
the prob is with me.

i just realize that this is the 1st time i join 5p1 "gathering"
2 years and this is my 1st time
should i feel shame with myself?

thought im quite a sociable person
but.. i had missed out a lot of class thingy like this
and i became very very wrong channel with them
i feel like im an outsider.
its not a good feeling
but who can i blame huh?
me myself. =x

okay. i should not emo. =(

grandma bday ;)

2009-08-16T21:47:00.003+08:00

im back from grandma house for 1 hour ++
i think.
ate pizza for supper
and guess whats the time?
9++ only =.-
so if you see me getting fatter
you will know the reason right?

so.. i spent my days playing some lame childish games
watch tv till fall asleep
and gossip a little with cousins
which means..
i brought my history reference book
but its totally useless.
with all those little monkeys messing around
i did not study at all.
not even touch xia the book =.-

cousin having her graduation ceremony on sat
which is so damn.. weird? =x
she's form 5 aso mar.
why so so fast graduate ar?
and hor..
they can makeup to attend de wei
really so not student
haiyoyo.

oh! i remember sth.
last year i lost my camera, my mp3 player and lots of valuable stuff around this time last year
its my grandma bday again.!
time flies huh?
dad even suggest me not to take pic
hahaha. scare the camera lost again
*ahem ahem

and i finally took picture with grandma ;)
seriously she damn nice to hug wei

actually..
just a little smiling face can make me satisfy. =)

-

2009-08-14T21:16:00.003+08:00

going grandma house tomorrow.
not in mood to pack anything yet
i know i will regret this very soon
mum sure nag me all the way till i pack things later

shouldn't expect anything anymore.
things can't be worse anymore
if you don't expect anything.

i was just a bit of disappointed.
till just now..
i not sure whether it is a bit.. or a lot..
=x

i don't like the feeling
as if i am not important to you. at all

your expression wasn't the one i expected.
your reply isn't as warm as i expected.

bday post ;)

2009-08-14T21:02:00.003+08:00

should have post this 2 days earlier

la la la.

but i still damn good.

i hope you really really have a nice bday.

HAPPY 17th

you didn't expect anything from me huh?
cause you want a card from kexin
you want a bday post from yeemin
but nothing from me..?

all the best yo.